Passions dreams and sacrifices

With exams nearly over i am left feeling unconfident in my results and believe i have most likely failed. This means i can not proceed to uni next year and i will have to repeat the 2 courses i have failed. This means adding a year to my degree which i do not want to do. However this would give me and oppurtunity to work and do Bible College part time, which will enable me to afford to go to Uganda and fulfill the dreams that God has planted in me. If this does happen then it is a small sacrifice to make in order for my purpose in life to be achieved. This situation has reminded me that it is God who is always in control and knows exactly what he is doing in every acpect of our lives. It is reassuring to know that God is always there in everyway. I go on placement in just over a week and am excited to be able to light up the lives of patients, i will be in the surgical ward which will be challenging.

Everyone says to try to be like Jesus, or live like Jesus. I believe i should live my life and be who i am. God created us all individuals and unique for a reason. We are whole in Jesus and become who we truly our in Jesus. We will never be Jesus that is the sole purpose why Jesus came. In Jesus we are saved. Christian means Little Christ not Christ. We can only be snippets of Jesus in someone's life. They need to know the one and only Jesus. Not everyone trying to be Jesus as this can never be achieved. and frankly this mind set will make way for a train wreck trying to happen as it is a standard that can never be achieved. We all make mistakes and by following Jesus and trying our best to live the way that he wants and fullfilling our purpose is what should be focused on. Not trying to live like Jesus.

Each day my confidence grows to share my testimony, each day i grow stronger and more strength that i already have. I know what God has in store for me, obviously not all of it but i know my future is going to big and each day is preparation. I can hear Jesus guiding me and teaching me in subtle ways. Puzzle pieces start to fit together and create the picture. My future is my passion which drives me forward, each day is a step closer to it. I have never been more certain of anything in my life. To be a missionary in Africa, lend medical help to woman men and children,share my testimony and see thousands come to God. To spread and share God's light and bring them to God's Kingdom. To take the darkest of the dark and bring them the the brightest lights thats ever shone and will shine.

The only thing i dont like is having to wait a few years! ive never been good at patience and thats ones thing that God continuely speaks into my life. Have patience. When i want something i want it now. Is the way ive always been. I know this time of waiting is to eqip me with the skills i need and prepare for what is to come. It will be challenging but being a servant of God is a calling you can not ignore and can only be the most rewarding thing someone can do.