Time for a wake up call

This is a bit of a rant as well as a much needed reality check for every single person alive. I am so sick and tired of people (especially Christians) being incredibly fake and two faced. So many people have their heads up in the clouds and live in their own bubble world. Everyone you say and do has the potential to hurt or help someone.

Too many people at church are consumed with their own lives, they stay in thei cliques and groups and dont want to meet and make friends with someone new and different from them. Not what its about! Even so called friends are back stabbing and gossiping about their friends behind their backs or excluding people from gatherings and so forth. I have had enough and refuse to be apart of it. THe thing is though these people do not realise they are doing it and think that its fine and that they are great people following God.

God wants us to love eachother no matter what. Love everyone's differences and uniqueness. Be kind and step out of your comfort zone. Stop pretending and start living. I know people who need to hear this who think that they dont. Enough is enough and frankly Im sure God is tired of it too. Only time will tell. Get of your high horses humble yourself before the Lord and do his will. Make friends with someone new and different. You might find them weird and strange but they mind think you are too. Everyone is created by God and loved by God. It is time that we do the same.Do unto others what you wish to be done to you.Stop being humans of the world and be humans that belong to God Love one another with all your hearts and souls.

Michael Jackson

The world has lost another legacy that will live on forever. Michael Jackson was a true inspiration and strived for peace to exist in the world. He was the best entertainer the world has ever seen and a truly beautiful soul. I hope he is up in heaven moonwalking.My passion for dancing ignited when his music come one, I see so much of myself in him and grew up listening to his music. His death affected me more so than I thought. Its like Steve irwin dying all over again. A shock to the world. I have finally accepted who I am and am content in myself. God comes to you and answers prayer in the strangest ways. Grief has consumed me but I am celebrating his life. MJ is now at peace and his tormented soul hopefully healed. He believed in Jesus and God and strived to live like Jesus. This showed in his love for children and his giving. Hundreds of millions were given to charity.
Any dancer and musician would be sharing the same feelings around the world. I hope that we can all come together and strive for what MJ did. Loving eachother to try and make peace in the world and showing the glory of God in every way that we live. He was a musical genius, both with writing lyrics and composing music, and short films(aka music videos) choreographing and everything came together in a magnificant way. He said all this came from God, I dance for God and know what he means by that. A truly gifted and talented man who was a boy at heart.
Michael Jackson will be greatly missed but I hope we come together again in heaven.
Loved forever the king of pop.

Some thoughts lately...

those you follow us can only have what we are. I love this saying, people will look upto you and follow you before they start to follow and rely on Jesus. This is a big resposibility and not many are well prepared for it. We must strive in everything we do and live to be the best we can in God, be as pure as we can live as close as we can to Jesus if we are going to be a true example of what God is like. This is the utmost calling. God is intrusting you to take care of his beloved children while they get to know him. We must be responsible and wise with how we do this. Consuming yourself witht he Lord is the only way to do this. Trusting and following God yourself for his guidance. Who are Jesus to in your world?

something to embrace

The vision that you glorify in your mind, the ideal that you enthrone in your heart - this you will build your life by, and this you will become.

James Allen.

Concept of boiling water

When the water starts boiling it is foolish to turn off the heat. Nelson Mandela
This is one quote from Nelson Mandela that sticks in my mind. My passion is Africa, South Africa and Uganda in particular. I first read his autobiography within three days. I couldnt put it down. To know what this man went through for the freedom of his country in truly inspiring. three years on from reading it, i can still hear his voice reading me his life. This quote rings true to so many things but being on fire for God seems to be the main message Gods wants us all to hear. When someone starts to become on fire for God they are boiling they can either stop boiling and become stale. Stop going forward and either stay put or start to go backwards. This is seen too often for my liking and is it any wonder why. It is not always the persons fault, if they do not have enough guidance, leadership,oppurtunity or support among fellow christians,becoming stagnant is very possible. However when oppurtunity to further there walk with God comes about, many things are possible. They will either back down or boil over. We must continue and always be boiling and ensure everyone around us is. Boiling water has different stages but as long as we are in that process anything is possible. God wants us to be on fire and boil over. Where about are you when it comes to boiling water?

Back in action

okay everyone im back blogging and have come with fire. I took some time these past few months to focus on uni work and to figure out where im heading and to sort some things out. I still dont know some things but i finally feel able to breathe. I am more focused and am on fire. Being on holidays is a well needed break to gain some perspective. I know what God wants me to do in my life in the future and this is like most. You know your supposed to be a teacher, nurse, preacher and counsellor etc so you start studying and preparing for role. Yet that is years away so what do you do with your time now? that is what has been tugging away at me. How can God use me right now? is a question that you should always ask yourself when you wake up in the morning. I still dont know all the answers to that question the only thing to do is to keep praying for God to direct you to the specifics. Once you get a general idea such as young teen girls, then the question is what and how? Everyone has a purpose for the future and whilst God is preparing you for the future what can God prepare you to do now? Now is always the time.
If we keep saying oh i know what God's purpose for me is but i cant do anything about it for a few years yet. What is that saying, what can you do now that will make your future even better and brighter. The more you can do now will only aid you in the future. How much better will you be. God has a bigger plan for everyone in the world that creates his plan for the earth. Within those big plans are tiny plans and small things that help create the big ones. So the question i ask again is what can YOU do NOW?

last night of I61

the last night of i61 was totally awesome! the night didnt end until 12.30am. almost three solid hours of prayer. everyone was on fire, was incredible.
I had a vision of me preaching to thousands, very scary yet comforting in the same way. I had been praying for God to set me on fire, to fill me. well that he did. As i started to pray for others i could literally feel my hands burning and the power the filled me, the fire seemed to transfer to whoever i was praying for words would come out of my mouth that I never thought of, God was speaking to them through me. God was using me as a vessel, he was controlling me and it was a very strange feeling. God was everywhere, I dont think anyone left the building who had not been impacted in some way. I am more than ever excited for this year after an incredible start to it! i am certain that 09 brings amazing things for everyone.

Some words that came to me whilst I was overcome was this :
We must fight like never before, we must stand firm in our faith and take a stand. We must be on fire witht he holy spirit. Never back down we are running out of time. We must ignite a fire that has been dorment and become an inferno so that all nations will be blazing for God Proclaim and show the glory of God. Matt 3:11 we are baptized in the holy spirt and fire. We must be a blazing furnace, a catalyst for greater things. God wants us on fire for him and with doing so he will set us on fire with the holy spirit.

I61 conference!

So last night was totally awesome! Kevin Caldwell is amazing! You could feel Gods presence and the power that was in the building. The spirit was definitely upon us! sunday night was great also. God has revealed so many things to me already and the week ahs only just begun! Very excited to see what the rest of the week holds. I am always amazed and surprised at how God works, prayers are answered before we have already prayed them. Realise your passions and the call on your life and run for it, run like you never have before. Now is the time, each new day is the now part. Young people are being prepared and are rising up. Something is stirring in the hearts of young people and it is amazing to see!

a few of my favourite parts of last nights message:

Even if you have no one and are all alone. Remember that you never are and that you always have God.

No matter what is going on around you, look up to God and everything else wont seem as big. Call on God.

All bad and terrible things can manifest into something great.

If God is for me who can be against me.

God chose YOU in spite of who you were and what you have done.

You always need more Jesus.

Remember you are God's Child and that he chose you to bring others into the light of his kingdom.

who are you?

I feel like i have to say this maybe someone needs to hear it. Who are you? everyone is different and unique. God created us a certain way to fulfill our purpose on earth. When you compare yourself to someone either a celebrity or a friend and try to be like them you lose who you are and why you are on earth. Trying to be like someone your not is not the answer. You are most comfortbale when being yourself. Everyone one is attracted to different things which is the beauty of being different. Sure you may not always fit in or get on with people. Honeslty who care? you shouldnt if you are being true to yourself. I have learnt that this year. Do not care what other people think, it will only bring you down and make you doubt yourself. In God you are strong and who you are and supposed to be. Do not stress about what other people think and if people with judge you. It is a waste of energy and time. Live your life how God will want you to and that is it. Dont change yourself for anyone or anything. God loves you jsut the way you are and trying to change with not do anything.
Love you all
xox

Life is too short

The averege human life is 80yrs. This is if your lucky and healthy enough to live this long. I'm aiming to see 100, dont think i will though. Would love at least 90. Howver i do not see myself being that old. The process of death scares me so much. However I am not afraid to be with Jesus. what i am afraid of is what if i die and I have not fulfilled what i was supposed to do on earth. What happens if you let someone go you were not ment to. Life is too precious to waste. I am 20 next year. It feels like yeaterday i was 11. In no time at all we age and life can zoom past and we stay the same. We must move with time and react with the changes. Each day is important in saving lives. I know I can not fulfill what God wants me to do for at least another few years so i have to figure out what I am supposed to do until then. This is upto God whatever he wants me to do I will. Time is precious. What are you doing with your time? God loves everyone even if you dont. People are in our lives for a reason and it is up to us to find this reason out. Even if we cant just being there is helping. everyone asks what are they supposed to be doing? what does God want me to do with my life? the simple answer is PRAY the only way to know what God wants you to do is to pray and ask him. I can not stress that enough. Prayer is the only way to find out what you are called to do. Once you know there is no turning back. a fire ignites and throw yourselves at it. 2009 is here what are you going to do? use your time wisely!

New Year

The start of a new year is always welcomed. A fresh start and new beginning. I am excited for what 2009 will bring. I have set some new years resolutions that i plan to stick too. This year God is going to move like never before in my life. I can feel something stirring and it is so exciting and invigorating. Here are some things i am doing in 09:

1. Writing a book 2. Learning Guitar and getting better at keyboard 3. Studying hard at uni 4.Launching myself into the hands of God and craving him like never before. 5. fine tune my art skills 6. get into shape, become more fit than i already am. 7 enjoy life like never before and savour each day for what it is. 8. accept things for what they are 9. dont stress over things i cant control 10. Pray and Pray and pray and seek God with all my heart in everything that i do this year.

Although im excited for 09 im more excited for the years that follow. I have grown so much in 08 and gone through a lot these past 2yrs that i am glad for a fresh year. Hopefully I dont have to deal with too much this year! My main goal this year is to do well at uni and have fun living life.

Its Jan 3rd 09. Where has time gone? life flies by quicker and quicker the older you get.

Whats your goal this year? what does God want you to do this year?

Hope everyone has a fab start to 2009!

Challenges of palcement

My hospital placement has been so many things, excitement,challenging rewarding, sad, happy funny, the main thing that it has been is challenging. I am practising and expanding my medical skills and building my strength up each day, each patient brings me so much that it is hard to understand. There are alot of elderly people that are so lonely that they would happily talk to you for your entire shift. Meeting someone who is completely deaf, someone who is 90 or a patient who is terminally ill with prostate cancer. A 4 yr old or a tennager. all bring so much and each patient draws something out of me that i did not know existed. Seeing a 30 min old baby and cuddling a 4 day old and stir up so many feelings and emotions. I have been put through th ringer these past few weeks, and i know its only to build my strength up, talking to a patient for 5 mins can really brighten up their day. Bringing a little bit of light and joy to a ward is all worth the pain that it has caused me. It got me thinking that so many people are able to go to a hospital and sit talking to a patient for 30 mins. It would brighten up so many lives of the people that are stuck in the hospital in pain and bed bound. Just some of my thoughts that have crossed my mind.

Passions dreams and sacrifices

With exams nearly over i am left feeling unconfident in my results and believe i have most likely failed. This means i can not proceed to uni next year and i will have to repeat the 2 courses i have failed. This means adding a year to my degree which i do not want to do. However this would give me and oppurtunity to work and do Bible College part time, which will enable me to afford to go to Uganda and fulfill the dreams that God has planted in me. If this does happen then it is a small sacrifice to make in order for my purpose in life to be achieved. This situation has reminded me that it is God who is always in control and knows exactly what he is doing in every acpect of our lives. It is reassuring to know that God is always there in everyway. I go on placement in just over a week and am excited to be able to light up the lives of patients, i will be in the surgical ward which will be challenging.

Everyone says to try to be like Jesus, or live like Jesus. I believe i should live my life and be who i am. God created us all individuals and unique for a reason. We are whole in Jesus and become who we truly our in Jesus. We will never be Jesus that is the sole purpose why Jesus came. In Jesus we are saved. Christian means Little Christ not Christ. We can only be snippets of Jesus in someone's life. They need to know the one and only Jesus. Not everyone trying to be Jesus as this can never be achieved. and frankly this mind set will make way for a train wreck trying to happen as it is a standard that can never be achieved. We all make mistakes and by following Jesus and trying our best to live the way that he wants and fullfilling our purpose is what should be focused on. Not trying to live like Jesus.

Each day my confidence grows to share my testimony, each day i grow stronger and more strength that i already have. I know what God has in store for me, obviously not all of it but i know my future is going to big and each day is preparation. I can hear Jesus guiding me and teaching me in subtle ways. Puzzle pieces start to fit together and create the picture. My future is my passion which drives me forward, each day is a step closer to it. I have never been more certain of anything in my life. To be a missionary in Africa, lend medical help to woman men and children,share my testimony and see thousands come to God. To spread and share God's light and bring them to God's Kingdom. To take the darkest of the dark and bring them the the brightest lights thats ever shone and will shine.

The only thing i dont like is having to wait a few years! ive never been good at patience and thats ones thing that God continuely speaks into my life. Have patience. When i want something i want it now. Is the way ive always been. I know this time of waiting is to eqip me with the skills i need and prepare for what is to come. It will be challenging but being a servant of God is a calling you can not ignore and can only be the most rewarding thing someone can do.

2009

I truly believe that 2009 is going to be an amazing year, not just for me but for others everywhere. Ill be in my 2nd year of uni with a extremely hectic full time schedule, especially if i do Bible college thursday nights, ( might have to wait till i graduate before i can do it!) But everyday i get excited for the new year ahead, a fresh start and more goals to achieve. I plan on saving $5000 so i can be part of mobilise 1000 and go to Uganda in Jan 2010. SO excited for that. 2010 will be a big year as it will be my last year of my 1st degree and much more stuff that i can not yet reveal. My only source of income is babysitting and having no car for a week while it is getting fixed is not helpful but i always seem to have enough money and that is truly the work of God. I would still love to win the lottery so i could do many amzing things with it. If i am i ment to go to Uganda in just over a year, God will make it happen. God put Uganda in my heart for a reason.
I still can not believe it will be november in a few days, i am looking forward to having Empire on sunday nights, it will bring a whole new dynamic to it and leave fridays nights for other amazing things to happen! It will be good to see many more young adults there as there a plenty at church!
Just thought id share my excitement for the next few years ahead! although they will be hectic im sure they will be amazing!
just get pumped for 2009!

Children

I am seriously disgusted at the way society and today's culture treat children. The children today are much less innocent than they were Children are fully aware of what strangers can do to them, they know swear words from school, they know all about sex and drugs. Some even drink alcohol! im am talking about 5-10 year olds. The stories ive heard and things ive seen upset me greatly. I believe children should stay children for as long as possible. I only had 8 years of childhood and they were the best years ever. Why there are bras avaliable for 5 year olds is beyond me, high heels and knee high boots for this age range is just plain wrong.

As a student nurse and wanting to be a midwife we constantly want to save the lives of children, babies and even unborn babies and with the new legislation that is now approved for babies to be aborted in the 3rd trimester is extremely concerning. A baby can survive with neonatal care from as young as 20-22 weeks which is 5 months gestation. Abortions are now allowed to 24 weeks and longer if certain circumstances. This new law is justified by womens right to their bodies. When you become pregnant the right to your body belongs to that child not you. Women change their diet,sleep,excercise regime and the way they dress think and feel just to make sure that the baby is healthy. If you want the right to your body then protect your body from becoming pregnant, many of these women get pregnant whilst intoxicated. Sure there are circumstances that may be deemed necessary, but that baby deserves the right to fight for its life. Abortion is murder! I have seen the effects of still births and SIDs which is known as cot death. It is the most heartbreaking thing to see parents go through. They would give anything to bring their baby back, yet there are people intentionally killing there children you could be adopted. It goes against a mothers instinct to kill their unborn child. My entire life is dedicated to women and babies, and i find it extremely disturbing at how acceptable the world is becoming of many things that should never be acceptable.

Why should i know how to give a 12- 13 year old girl or boy a safe sex talk? its is just appalling that it is acceptable for 14-15year olds to be having sex and to be prepared for even 11 year olds to be! there is a reason why there are legal ages. There is a reason as to why people are growing up more and more messed up.

As Christians we must stand out and take a stand. We see the light, know the truth and are following the way of Jesus. It is so crucial for us to be out in society showing these children that there is a better and different way to live! Sure people will think we are wierd or strange but when they see how much better of we are they will begin to wonder why!

My birthday!

Tuesday 14th October was such a good and very busy day! totally exhausted! woke up at 6am, my parents came in at 6.55am singing happy birthday with my card and pressies, my uncle rang from england, got ready then my nan rang. spent the morning with a friend, then went up to montville and had lunch with my mum :) did some shopping, then had coffee with another friend, then had a family dinner of chinese :) then birthday cake. Went to knect and then came home and a friend stayed over and watched a movie, finally went to bed at 12.30am ! so long day! My phone didnt stop with texts and the phone was always ringing for me which i loved. A friend of mine asked if i felt any different being 18, honeslt not at all! i feel like i have freedom from my parents,and that now everything is on me. People also tend to take you more seriously when you say your 18 rather than 17. Just feel like im getting old!

I am grateful that i passed my anatomy resist :) God is truly paving the path for me through uni, very obvious throughout the year that this is exactly what God wants me to be doing.

I have started to make friends at uni after spending a year trying very hard to not get involved with that party scene and im still not involved however the people there are truly in need of God and its so heartbreaking to hear the way people talk and portray themselves. Just have to keep pressing into the uni, the day is coming i can feel it!

Last day as 17!

my last entry as a 17 year old is quite an exciting one! i look forward to not needing parents signatures any longer for anything! and by law am officially an adult and it is a nice sense of freedom that my parents have no control over me now what so ever! My parents are not Christians and do not agree with my life. So this for me is very exciting! come 6.55 am 14th october 2008 i will be 18. My words of wisdom are simply do not worry about stuff that you have no control over. If you can do something about it then do it. Otherwise dont stress yourself! i have a had a busy week! went to youth camp down the Gold coast which was awesome, and very impacting, i went thinking i was not going to be impacted so greatly by God as much as last year. How wrong was I! i ended up having a vision, and so did someone else about me and now knows things about me that they couldnt possibly have known! and God revealed why i have certain talents of mine which is totally awesome! my entire life before i even knew God he was creating me in every way for his purpose only! so we get back at 3am and i then have to write an essay due the next day! back to uni then back to the Gold coast for shopping and drive in movies! so much fun! then back at 2am and up at 7. My bday lunch and then i slept for 12 hours! much needed sleep! I am so excited for the year ahead, i am determined to make 2009 and me now being 18 the best year ever! i have so many things i want to do. Would love to go to Bible College but do not have the time next year so will have to do short courses!
I am seriously continuely amazed at God and how we just have to think something and God will make it happen! or i say it while praying in tongues!
We do not have long left on earth so we need to keep telling the world about Jesus!
Pray and dont stop praying or praising God for mighty things will be done!

Mother Teresa

The other week i bought the movie Mother Teresa based on her life. It was on sale for $5 so i was pretty stoked not only did i find a bargain but one that could make a difference. Mother Teresa lived 87 years (August 26, 1910 – September 5, 1997) and was born Agnes Gonxha Bojaxhiu. She founded Missionaries of Charity and served Christ her entire life. She gave and gave. Here are some of her most famous quotes. She is truly an inspiration, i feel connected to her as what she achieved in India and worldwide i have been called to do in Africa. To start with Uganda and South Africa. The movie is very moving and opens your eyes to how she would have lived her life.

"People who love each other fully and truly are the happiest people in the world. They may have little, they may have nothing, but they are happy people. Everything depends on how we love one another."

“If we really want to love we must learn how to forgive."

"Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin"

“Spread love everywhere you go: first of all in your own house. Give love to your children, to your wife or husband, to a next door neighbor... Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness; kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile, kindness in your warm greeting."

If you judge people, you have no time to love them."

” I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love."

“When a poor person dies of hunger, it has not happened because God did not take care of him or her. It has happened because neither you nor I wanted to give that person what he or she needed." –

In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love." in reference to this. if we continue to do small things with great love, it will eventually amount to something magnificent!

this quote is the essence of what my life will exist on. as a nurse and midwife i have been taught at uni to follow what she says but they dont mention Mother Teresa, i personally rather follow her then uni! here it is. ”Speak tenderly to them. Let there be kindness in your face, in your eyes, in your smile, in the warmth of your greeting. Always have a cheerful smile. Don't only give your care, but give your heart as well."

"It's not how much we give but how much love we put into giving."

Every thing she did was with Love. The world today needs love and compassion. Love is truly the answer to all the earths problems. Just think of a problem and how i t can be solved. love would be the most simple and logical answer. Imagine a world if love did not exist? Just smiling at something is an act of love. I have often heard that a man was walking down the street for the last time and he was going to commit suicide. He goes God i will continue to live if someone notices me. A lady walks by and smiles at him. As a result he does not commit suicide but becomes a Christian. I will try and find out where this is from.
Are you living you life full of love? i am overflowing with love that i need more people to give it too! Ask God what is your calling in life? what is it that your here on earth for at this time in eternity. Give your life to serve Christ and the rest is up to God! Do everything with Love.

Its time

This has been on my heart for while now since my eyes have been opened to what has been happening with todays Young Christians. There are two groups. One group are full on for God they know Jesus personally and know they have a purpose and are looking straight ahead to God. They are living for the cause of Christ. They have given their lives to God. The other group is the young people you believe that God exists and Jesus died for them. Yet they want to enjoy what the world offers them. They still exist in with the other young people who are messing around witht their souls. They indulge is pleasures that they shouldnt and behave and act how they shouldnt. This is happening all around us and gets me quite upset and angry. From what i have seen and heard this is happend everywhere and some of these young people are in leadership and are supposed to be the ones setting an example. People seriously need to open their eyes and get the revelation from God that i have. Time is running out and we need to stand up. Millons have yet to hear about Jesus and it is our responsibility to do this. We need to set thing straight with these young people and make them see the truth and how the devil and their own stupidity and mind has been holding them back from God's purpose for them. After that just let them decide their own fate.

As Christians we need to step up now and go out in our world and pray for God to tell us where and who to go to. Young people need to stop playing around with life and their eternal fate.
Yes you can have fun with life and enjoy yourselves but do it for God and follow Christ and we can see many lives changed and see more souls for heaven. Now is the time. stop procrasinating. Life is too short to muck around we need to stand up if no one else will and lead by example. We need to practice what we preach. If you know someone like what i have mentioned. spend a bit of time with them to reveal the real Jesus to them. If after that let them live their lives, It will get them eventually.
Let us go out into the world and do what God called us to do and be the people God has called us to be.