First Blog

okay so here i am on a cold rainy saturday night, curled up in a nice warm bed with a hot cup of tea at 10.30pm on a saturday night. I am purely writing this blog for myself, however i feel that i am able to give others an insight into my world by doing this and perhaps impact on lives in someway. So here i go. What was ment to be a family dinner tonight turned out to be a major family argument instead. Screaming,shouting, name calling ,threats,and even swearing by various family members took place. On the surface an onlooker would think my family was a loving closeknit unit. Far from the truth. Even my parents pretend that the lack of respect and selfishness in my family is just that. You see my family has only been like this since i was thirteen when i bought something to their attention. Which you will find out at a later date. Tonight i am so grateful for God's grace and i remember that over the past few weeks, God has answered my prayers so obviously and quickly that you wouldnt believe it. I feel God has put some new faces in my life for a reason and i am loving making new friends! There is nothing that beats the feeling of making a whole new friend out of a complete stranger a few months ago! I feel sad at how one of my recently ew friends is going back to canada tomorrow but i know she is going to be a great influence over there as she is a beautiful women of God with an incredible calling on her life. Last night at Empire was so funny, we had fab funky friday with dancing and singing. I feel such a strong calling to Empire Uni and i know that this is where i am supposed to be right now. God has called me to share my testimony and i am preparing that right now so that i will have the right words to honour the glory of God and proclaim everything that he has done for me. I am constantly praying for God to give me the strength and courage to do this as if anyone knows me they know that speaking i front of people declaring my heart and soul is not one easy task! I am so exited for tomorrow as it is sunday which means i get to be at church both morning and night. To see everyone of to Hillsong Conference which will be amazing! I believe that life has many gifts to offer and that God knows which ones to let you open. Just trust God and believe that he knows best. The saying that mum knows best is not true. it Should be God knows best. I want to be a young bride and mother, have a family and fulfill God's calling together, however i knbw that this is most likely not what God has planned for me. Although i do hope so! I am so grateful that God has perfect timing in life, if ever you need a hug and there is no one to hug you ask Jesus to give you a hug and he will! I think that is enough from me for tonight! i hope that everyone has the best july as i plan to do! even though i have to resit an exam! not a happy bunny! love you all, love Sam xox